Not a happy 4th

Published July 4, 2015 by Amplio Recorrido

I absolutely dread the fourth of July and I’ll explain all about it below. 

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Everyone is all excited when the great ol Independence Day comes except two people: Babies and PTSD sufferers. I’m suffering from PTSD and the 4th doesn’t sound like a great thing to me. You see, I’ve been shot and survived and therefore, I’m not interested in anything that goes boom. Hell, I jump whenever someone slams a car door, to hear a constant booming is going to wreck me more than the blown up fireworks. 

I also live in a neighborhood where my neighbors could care less how I feel and they’ll be out shooting off fireworks, guns, drinking and being loud. I won’t be going outside my house this year, nor have I done it any other year. It won’t matter, I can’t escape the sounds. I suppose I’ll be needing to pull out those headphones of mine to drown out the sound and perhaps play some calming music or watch TV through the headphones. 

I dread these types of holiday’s and that goes for New Years too. With all of the excitement surrounding the 4th, I can’t help but wonder if anyone considers that some of us aren’t keen to tremoring and having panic attacks. I would imagine that people who don’t suffer, don’t care. You see, I’ve tried therapy for many years now and it seems that if I’m not actually facing my therapist, I can’t really get through these sort of things on my own and I know that probably sounds stupid to most but, it’s important that I have something to keep my mind off of this. 

All I ask is that if you know you have neighbors with PTSD, please be considerate and don’t shoot off fireworks, guns or anything else that may startle them. You never know how dangerous it can be. If you startle the wrong PTSD sufferer, you may end up dead. Sometimes they panic and start shooting, those are often the one’s who have been in war. Thank you for reading my blog! 

The Outcast

Published June 30, 2015 by Amplio Recorrido

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This blog is dedicated to those who like me, are outcasts whether socially or personally. 

For as long as I can remember, I have been an outcast and it’s something that’s always been difficult for me to break away from. As a child, I was the goofy one who always enjoyed making people laugh (which I did in strange ways), laughing at times that were maybe inappropriate and embracing the 90’s with a vengeance by wearing the neon’s and mismatched clothes. I guess you could say that I never cared much what people thought of me and I didn’t go out of my way to be liked. 

As I got older, I realized that you had to be liked by at least a few people and if not, you had no one on your side when you needed someone. So, I began looking for outcasts just like myself and boy did I find them. The problem was that I found people who were too much of an outcast, people who were often into trouble or hung out with people too strange for my tastes and that was usually followed by those who were either alcoholics, drug users who were victims of such a lifestyle growing up. So I began trying to change parts of myself and I still yet was attracting people that weren’t like me and were too much for my liking. 

When I became an adult, I decided that maybe looking for friendships wasn’t for me and that people would naturally attract themselves to me. I’ve met a lot of great people that way. The problem is, they didn’t stick around very long and ended up being rather sensitive people who didn’t like my humor or who wanted to constantly bring up rumors they have heard about me. It just hasn’t worked out so far except for one good friend. I have just this one who’s odd, is similar to me in many ways, who has a level head and a good mind and who wasn’t a product of poor circumstances. She’s the type of person who can make me laugh, lift me up when I’m feeling down, be right with me when I need someone and just lights up my life. 

I can say that not much has changed with me. Even after getting married and having a child, I’m still the same person inside that I always was. The difference is, I’ve found someone who can tolerate me and a kid who’s just as goofy as I was. Though I wonder what will become of my son, will he struggle the way I did to make friends and how he’ll get along in life, I know that life has funny ways of working things out and I feel confident that things will be just fine. So the moral of this story, be yourself and let others come to you and don’t change for anyone because you never know, someone will come along and love you for you. 

Outlawed Christian’s.

Published June 21, 2015 by Amplio Recorrido

I want to talk to everyone concerning Christian’s vs Atheists due to a high amount of harassment and threats towards Christian’s. I think this is important because, I too am a victim of this. 

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I’m a Christian and I love God very much but, like many Christians, I’m being harassed and threatened on a daily basis for my beliefs. Let me explain. You see, every time I get on websites such as Facebook, YouTube, Yahoo Answers and so forth, as soon as someone finds out I’m a Christian I always get attacked. There are several statements that are always made by Atheists.

  1. “Screw you and your fake God”

  2. “You’re a faggot believing in that flying man in the sky”

  3. “You’re a dumb b****”

  4. “Your God is sadistic for allowing people to die and kids to go hungry”

  5. “Go f*** yourself and f*** your God”

Now those are just a few of the things I hear often and as you can see, they are very much inappropriate. All of that just for believing in God and I don’t understand it because, in the first place I’m not hurting anyone. My lifestyle doesn’t affect anyone else as I’m not pushing God onto them. I don’t go around quoting scripture or telling people they are going to hell so what’s the big deal?

There’s several reasons these people give for hating Christian’s and so many of them have nothing to do with me. For instance, any story of a “Christian” that has been involved in some sort of scandal including sexual assaults, that’s when the God bashers eyes light up and they go on full attack mode. Then, they often use God as if he’s the reason behind it. You also have people committing illegal acts in the name of God and therefore, God must be the reason behind it. What Atheists fail to understand is that those people have underlying mental issues and just because they hear a voice that says it’s God, doesn’t mean that it is and always isn’t God and therefore, just because someone says something like that for the reason they committed something heinous, doesn’t have anything to do with being a Christian.

The other side of this is people wanting to make arguments for Science, Darwinism and other views pertaining to the world. For instance, Richard Dawkins had one of his many rant events and he looked up and said “God if you’re real, you’re welcome to come down and join us and show yourself” and then everyone burst into laughter. They believe it’s incredibly funny to say ridiculous things. Nevermind that, it’s their problem and not mine. The point is, if you’re going to be an ass, be one in the mirror and not towards innocent people. I can’t prove to you that there’s a God as my experience with God, is greatly different than someone else’s. I have my own personal reasons for it and it has nothing to do with coercion, preachers, church or anyone else.

Regardless of your thoughts on God or the lack thereof, you do not have the right to make someone else’s life miserable. The people out there who are Atheists or claiming to be one are obsessed with seeking out Christian’s and running them into the ground. They laugh, mock, threaten and carry on as if they are some billy badass. You’re not, you’re just an ass. The world is incredibly messed up at this point. We as a society especially the God believers are expected to give up all of our rights. We’ve had our bible classes, bible and any other religious material stripped away from our children in schools and have replaced it with homosexual materials which we are forced to “accept”. Recently, there was a story going around the internet about a school that was reading a story to elementary student’s about Gay Marriage. So, we’re sending our kids to school to learn about gays and “equal rights” and not anything educational. More and more small children are having sex, being taught they are transgender and gay/lesbian/bi. I’m sorry but, no child should be coerced or forced into being an adult in a child’s body. I do not believe that any elementary child should be involved in any adult issues including sex of any kind or learning about sex of any kind that includes heterosexual sex. Children at that age shouldn’t be learning anything that’s not going to benefit them in the future.

I’m not expecting that children be against those who are adults and choose to be homosexual, I’m against children learning about all of the different things that homosexual and heterosexual couples do at a young age. I’m concerned that children are becoming pregnant at even the youngest ages of 11 years old. I’m concerned that Christian children aren’t allowed to quietly read their bible in school or wear a cross necklace because it makes people butthurt who are afraid of their Atheists children becoming Christian. That’s hate too, that’s what people don’t get. When you’re not accepting a child who believes in God and you’re teaching your children to bash those who believe in God, you’re creating bullies. I do not endorse any bullies and that includes children who are forced into a homosexual lifestyle, a Christian lifestyle or an Atheist lifestyle. We need to get ourselves worked out and stop infringing on the rights as children to just be children! If you want to bash me for that, go ahead! It has nothing to do with my believing in God, it’s about being human and being moral in all ways.

Thank you for reading my blog.

Paying Bills and Living Frugal

Published June 20, 2015 by Amplio Recorrido

Ah the bill, the one thing people dread getting in the mail especially, if you’re stuck in overdue nightmare. Many people will say they hate paying bills and so many have nothing left, it sucks the rest of any fun there might have been out. 

Until November 2014, I wasn’t having to pay any bills except my cell phone. It felt good to have money to do whatever I wanted with it. I lived with in-laws and rent/utilities were never required. The problem with that was, you never heard the end of it anytime an argument started. Then everything changed, my husband, son and I moved into our first home that we own. We had put all of our money toward buying a house straight cash. No mortgages for us, we knew that’s an expense we couldn’t afford. 

When we moved into our new home, we were thrilled with it. Finally a place of our own! A place that we were free to roam, turn the TV as loud as we want, play the radio, hang out, eat on the couch, stay up till whenever and just enjoying the space without anyone bitching. That freedom came with bills and boy are there plenty. Though we don’t have a mortgage, we do have cell phones, power bill, trash pickup, water, security system, internet, our son’s life insurance and car insurance. We do not subscribe to TV. We have Netflix and YouTube and that’s all we’ll need. We cannot see paying more than $60/month for TV service. It couldn’t be more difficult considering as of this moment, we’re bringing in less than $700 a month total. So here’s what we started out doing

For the first 5 months, we paid our bills as soon as they came in and we realized we had nothing left to get through the rest of the month. Well that obviously doesn’t work but, we also didn’t want to get behind on bills. So what do you do? Well, we just realized that we have to make it through the month and that these companies are not going to shut off your power, water and so on if you’re trying to make the payments. So the next month, we found out who is willing to let us pay half of the bill and that’s what we have been doing every since. It works out great, it gets us through the month or at least most of the way and we still have money for those unexpected expenses and of course all of the expenses associated with kids.

The key is to not let yourself go broke. These companies can wait! The only companies that aren’t that flexible are car insurance and cell phones (particularly prepaid cell phones) If you don’t pay that bill the day it’s due, you won’t have it. Though we barely have anything to get us through the month, I very much enjoy paying bills. I enjoy feeling like the adult I am, knowing that everything is getting paid and no one is helping us do it. It’s great because, you don’t have anyone running behind you, throwing it up in your face constantly about them paying your bills.

Now, I know this might sound strange to all of you but, it’s like this, for far too long I was in a situation where paying any kind of bill other than personal expenses was the norm and though it’s great and everything, it makes you just less of an adult and more co-dependent. The key is also determining what can you live without and what would you rather have instead. For us, we can’t see paying a lot of money for cell phone service. So my husband and I found the cheapest option available. We both have unlimited text, data and calls for $35/month (each). We managed to save up enough (while we were living with relatives) to purchase Samsung Galaxy S3’s and that’s what we have stuck with for the past 2 years. There’s no reason to get the newest and latest phones, it’s an added expense that many people can’t really afford.

When it comes to TV subscription, why are you paying satellite companies so much money every month? Some people are paying up to $200/month. Why? Just to catch a favorite show? Everything and I mean everything will end up on YouTube (sometimes daily) and Netflix covers all of your favorite shows and yes, you’ll have to wait a short time before they’re available but, it’s $7.99 a month. Imagine what you can do with the remainder of the money. Want to watch the latest sports game? Go to any bar or restaurant with a TV and watch it for FREE! Some even stream live from home if you look for the right websites on Google. I mean seriously, save yourself some money! These days people are going broke believing they must have the newest of everything or be the first to watch or do something.

When it comes to clothes, buy second hand. Don’t go wasting a bunch of money buying at over priced stores like the mall. You can get very nice clothing that sometimes still has the tags on it from Goodwill (ewww? NO it’s gently used clothing that can be washed). If you insist on buying from a store, many of the same items you would buy at 3 times the price at Macy’s or some store in the mall, can be found at Walmart, Target and TJ Maxx. Why overspend?

Ladies, your shoes, hair and nail expenses. Seriously? You don’t have to pay high prices. I know you’re going to snub at this but, have you seen the beautiful manicure design kits that you can do yourself? Did you know that they sell them at the dollar stores? Did you know that they are often made by the same companies that you pay twice the price for? Yes, dollar stores especially Dollar Tree, they sell name brand products too like Revlon. The same goes for many other items you might use such as notepads, pens, decorations for parties, all holiday and events cards are 50 cents each and they look just as nice. They also have shampoo’s, conditioners, hair brushes and many other self care need products. They even sell quality medicines like Ibuprofen, Heat/Cold patches for pain, arthritis cream, band aids, razors etc… They sell Betty Crocker cookware, beautiful glass drinking glasses, porcelain plates that are beautifully decorated, all your kitchen stuff such as aluminum foil, plastic bags, trash bags, sponges, toilet plungers, even cleaning products and much much more! Don’t overspend on things you can buy at the dollar stores that are seriously the same quality as the higher priced stores! It’s not all plastic junk like you think it is!

At some point, you have to decide that you’re tired of being broke. That you’re tired of not being able to afford that vacation that you always wanted to go to. That you need emergency money for those unexpected life surprises such as, an expensive car part for that car that just broke down. Thank you for reading my blog and I hope you’ll take my advice on living frugal.

P.S. ANYTHING THAT SHOWS UP AS A LINK ON MY BLOG, DO NOT CLICK THE WORDS THAT ARE UNDERLINED. THEY ARE AN ADWARE ISSUE THAT I’M WORKING ON RESOLVING.

Update: My Autistic Toddler

Published June 15, 2015 by Amplio Recorrido

So my son who’s 2 1/2 years old now is starting to speak somewhat. He can say Taco, Eat, Juice, Mama, Daddy, Bye Bye, Cat and his name. So, we’re encouraging him to keep saying those words and trying not to add too many new words. He babbles so much that we know he knows what he’s talking about, no one else understands him though most of the time, including us.

He’s still in Early Intervention but, they don’t seem to work with him like I thought they would. They aren’t encouraging him to talk or learn new skills. The woman who comes is mostly silent other than trying to get him to learn sign language. I’m concerned about whether or not this is good for him. I don’t mind if he learns sign language, I’m just not thrilled about the little progress being made by these people. They really seem to slack off and the woman seems to not care about her job anymore.

I’ve decided to join many Autistic mom groups, I’m hoping that through there I can receive better support and understand of my son’s condition. We’re still struggling with his OCD’s. He has a fascination with turning lights on and off a certain number of times, watching the same cartoons over and over, right now he’s in the Thomas The Train phase and Bob Zoom (an obnoxious cartoon filled with Spanish kids songs). My son understands much more Spanish than English and so it’s something we’re working on.

I can see that it’s getting harder and more frustrating to get his attention. He’s your typical 2 year old cute ball of terror and with the lack of language skills and showing little interest in other kids or productive activities, I’m at a loss on what to do. I know and understand that kids like same, same, same every single day but, his need for the same thing constantly isn’t working around what we need to get done. He likes going out for no more than 10 minutes which makes it complicated for me to go to the store, to the post office or any other adult thing that must be done. If anyone here can give me some advice I would greatly appreciate it!

Why do we as a society come out?

Published June 12, 2015 by Amplio Recorrido

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In this blog I’m going to talk about issues that may be sensitive to some readers but, I think it’s important to discuss things sometimes that are uncomfortable. 

I have watched a lot of documentaries in my time and I’ve seen and heard just about everything so, I shouldn’t be shocked or baffled right? WRONG. Let me start by talking about those who come out. I as a person, have nothing against gay people in general and I tend to stay out of conversations which are heated in LGBT debates. Here’s the thing, I can’t understand why people feel the need to “come out”. Why do they feel the need to tell half the world they are gay? I mean seriously, no one cares. The problem with the world today is that people don’t keep anything private anymore. We always know who’s sleeping with who, who’s gay and who’s not, who’s a racist and who’s not and many other personal matters. You would think that some people would keep things discretionary.

I recently saw a video on YouTube that was a documentary about old people coming out and I’m like really? You’ve had the same lover for 50 years and now you decide, that the world needs to know you have sex with another woman? We don’t care about your sex life! That includes your being homosexual, heterosexual or otherwise and another thing stop calling people “Queers, Fags and Homo’s”. It’s getting really old to hear that everyone is one of those 3 things and most people that are called that are not associated with it. You most often hear that from immature people and teenagers. Everything is “Queer or Gay”. These days you can’t wear glasses or look different in any way without being called a Queer or a Fag. It’s just become obnoxious! 

Another stupid issue we have today is people feeling the need to claim “Black Power” and “White Power” OMG who the hell cares! Seriously, you are what you are and there’s no need to make an announcement about it! I don’t understand this nonsense with people feeling the need to express every single, little, tiny detail of their life and force other people to be exposed to it! Find something to do, something productive LIKE BLOGGING!  All of this madness surrounding whether we as a people should be segregated again or not. YES, yes we should be segregated again and you know why? People can’t damn get along that’s why! We’re in this stage again where people feel the need to call everyone a racist and are determined to show their “Pride” and stroke their ego’s over the color of their skin! If you can’t get off it, yes, we should be segregated because I don’t know about you guys but, I’m sick of hearing all of this oh “They are a racist” and “Don’t use the N word but, we say it every other word” and “White power this and black power that”. Seriously get over yourself! 

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RANT OVER! 

 

Warning Review: BoBrowser

Published June 7, 2015 by Amplio Recorrido

I left my desktop computer on as I normally do while my husband, son and I went out for a morning of shopping. When I returned home, I didn’t get on the computer right away. Tonight, when I got on the computer I noticed that Google Chrome was missing off of my desktop and that a browser called “BoBrowser” was installed in it’s place. It mimics Google Chrome in that it uses a similar icon and makes you think that you’re going to legit websites. 

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If you see any words in this that are clickable, do not click the words. I haven’t completely managed to get rid of all the BoBrowser stuff yet. 

I noticed that my AVG protection  had all kinds of warnings up telling me that my computer was loaded with malware and viruses, which doesn’t happen ever. I also noticed that there were tons of icons on my desktop that weren’t there before. When you open this BoBrowser, you will see that there are ad’s galore all over pages that don’t contain ad’s such as the Social Security Administration page. It will also automatically open various tabs while you’re on a page.

This new BoBrowser is apparently a virus and it seemingly installed it’s self while ridding my computer of my beloved Chrome. Be aware that if you see this on your desktop along with the many icons, you will need something strong to uninstall it. The first thing you want to do is go down to your toolbar where the clock is and close on BoBrowser and then you want to go to another browser you have on your computer, for instance you can use Internet Explorer. Go and download a program called Iobit Installerand then go in through your regular control panel, click remove programs and find BoBrowser and make sure that when you click uninstall, Iobit installer opens up. Then select the program and press the green button at the bottom called Powerful uninstall. After it uninstalls the program it will say “Do you want to clean up the files left behind” press yes and then press “Shred files” then “Remove Files”. This is very important because, BoBrowser installs tons of cache’s and embeds its-self in your computer leaving behind tons of files that typical uninstallation doesn’t get rid of.

Once you have finished doing all of that, restart your computer and when your desktop reloads, make sure that it’s no longer on your desktop or in your system files.

So, this is what you should see when you open the iobit Powerful Uninstaller Program

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Then once you click uninstall of the program, you’ll see this

Iobit uninstaller notification

Make sure that you do not select “Create restore point before uninstalling”. You don’t want this sort of thing to remain anywhere in your computer, no chance of back up!

Next you’ll have this option which begins scanning for any leftovers. With BoBrowser you will have left overs so once it finds them, you’ll be taken to another screen which allows you to “Select all” make sure you click the check box and that every single file left behind is checked and then press the check box that says “Shred Files” and then click “Clean up”

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I had already gotten rid of BoBrowser before writing this blog and taking screen captures so these screen captures are from another program I uninstalled.  

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